My Thoughts as a New Mama
(Rebecca at 7 months old)
Becoming a mother has definitely changed my world. Rebecca is such a blessing in my life. It is crazy how a tiny little baby that can't do anything for herself can bring so much joy to my life. We have been blessed with a high energy little girl. She has always wanted to be held since she was born and would scream if I put her down even for a moment. We have practiced EC (Elimination Communication) with her since she was 3 days old. It was such a joy to be able to understand her cue (cry) that said she needed to go to the potty. It is even more exciting to actually hear her peeing in the potty.
Time alone is hard to come by. Breastfeeding on demand is definitely a sacrifice and an act of self-less love. It is hard sometimes to not be bitter about it, but time flies and the time becomes short looking back. It is amazing to watch how a tiny baby grows so big and fast all by my nourishment. What a privelage God has given us to nourish someone in such great need.
Rebecca has also been an inspiration to me. She has helped me exercise everyday, by being fussy at 10:30/11am every morning until I get outside to go on a walk. She motivates me to continue to eat healty foods by playing with and trying to eat bananas, oranges, apples, mangoes, lettuce, or anything that is within her reach. She is always smiling at strangers and reaching a hand out to send her greetings. She loves all people. It is so exciting to watch her become the person she was created to be.
Attachment parenting is difficult at times but the bond is strong. I'm sure in the future it will pay off even more as she becomes secure in our relationship and is more able to create strong bonds with others.
My marriage has seen some super lows as well. Having a baby does not always bring you closer. We had to purposely set aside time to be close and talk because if we didn't we would never have time for each other. It can be hard sometimes because Rebecca might have other plans, as in waking up after 1 hour of sleeping or not going to bed for a couple of hours after her bedtime. Marriage is hard work and for those who think that having a baby with your boyfriend/girlfriend or even husband/wife will bring you closer...you will be unpleasantly surprised. The commitment of marriage alone has, at some points, been what held us together.
Overall, I love being a mom and wife. I strive every day to do my best in both of those areas. God has blessed me so much in so many ways and I am so thankful.